When one grows up his dream self of rather vision of self changes with it. In my dreams the nature of the dreams also changed drastically. I had heaps of nightmares in my younger days. I was weak. I was small. Always facing unyielding and impossible adversary to beat. Leaving only option to try and flee. Fleeing wasn't successful most of the times. Since I was mostly seeing adversaries in confined or small space. One example is one short dream.
Confined space:
I'm in a room. My room with a shut door. In the middle of the room is a big, yellow and round table of my child statures chest high. On the other side of the table stands in strange curling and wide posture a creature witch I recognize as a witch. Clad all in black and long thin arms with long sharp nails coming out of her jet black veil. Only thing to be seen besides her arms is the lower face with bend long nose with moles. As I gaze this terrifying creature and fear starts to grasp my heart, witch bounces to run around the table after me. I bounced to run around the table in fear too. after running few rounds around I was on verge of crying. Fear came even stronger when I noticed how the table was getting smaller all the time, and the witch could already nearly take a hold of me over the table. Then the witch proceed to grab the table and toss it to the wall. I screamed of fear as the witch got her hands on me as I woke up from the terror.
I haven't got the smallest clue what I was even afraid as a child besides few fears I've yet to overcome. It's funny how one can't recall all the fears of childhood. At least those that didn't smear ones soul with traumatizing experiences that person carries pretty much their whole life. Remembering them even after decades and decades. Even if one cannot even recall happening itself.
As I grew my dream self grew with me. But it also overgrew me in some positions. After learning a bit of psychology in one or two courses. I came to realize what those changes where. I sometimes saw myself as my empowered and optimum self. As a super ego. This dream was about me wrestling with a werewolf in our cottage while my uncle was watching and being ripped beyond recognition if not the face. I recall that dream different cause I was taller and more muscular than I'm in real life. I get some empowering dreams sometimes, but in nightmares I'm always in my "own body" or something smaller.
Sometimes you can see yourself from third person perspective even. Then you might lose control of "your body". It's like you are in a game where you smoothly change camera angles as needed or narrated. It doesn't even feel that bizarre watching yourself from another perspective. Witch is really really odd.
Sometimes I encounter other sides of myself. That is highly bizarre. Can you imagine talking to your other side that thinks about things from another perspective or something like that.
The choice:
I encountered my "evil" side in one dream. I felt that I was in a hurry somewhere. Then short thin evil side came to tell me with his pale and freckly face while wearing glasses that I need to choose how to get where I'm going. I was in empty crossroad with only him to see in several hundred meters. He asked "Do you want to walk?" I didn't response so he lifted his hand to point at a direction of one road while asking "Do you need a bike" I turned to look at the direction he pointed to see a cyclist that was breathing heavily while coming my way. I immediately understood that he wanted me to steal it. I didn't respond and though to myself that bicycle was too slow. Then evil me turned his hand and asked "Do you need a car?" As a black Volvo V70 steered next to us and stopped to the lights. I had already deduced I was dreaming. So I was lucid and though not of nothing more, since it didn't matter no more. I went to the car and opened the door and forced the suit wearing driver to leave the car by holding his around 4 year old daughter as a hostage. Now I was on my way to someway I was supposed to go. The dream ended.
I believe the only reason I still remember that dream was because of two reasons. Firstly being lucid I'm lucid in many dreams, but more of that some other post. Second is the choice I took. I'm guessing my "moral self" won't let this decision slide and let me forget it. Guess I can't have "fun" in dreams when my conscience keeps guilt tripping me about it for years to come. Am I too righteous person or to let these things slide even in after dream or something else. I can't really tell myself. Though I would love to have real conversation between my other sides. Like the talks of id, ego and super ego in Stephen King Black tower saga.
That had some text in it. Hope you enjoyed reading it as much I enjoyed writing it.